ok can.
i sometimes feel that my presence in other's lives is all very ok-can-noted-you're-here-oh-look-there's-someone-to-replace-you-bye-now-OR-oh-by-the-way-i-started-a-convo-with-you-because-i-wanted-to-ask-something-now-that's-done-bye.
though i've resolved to let go and not expect feelings to be returned/reciprocated/recognised, sometimes its really hard. sometimes i have to be human and lapse into bouts of sadness and frustration.