You've gotta dance like there's nobody watching
Love like you'll never be hurt
Sing like there's nobody listening
And live like it's heaven on earth
--William W Purkey
Really sad at the thought of losing my friends from gradual drifting apart. The kind of drifting that avails itself upon us with every new phase in life.
There are so many wonderful dears who i might not have the fortune of being able to remain in their lives, and it's a terrible thought :(
even before NS has started for the guys and uni for the girls, have already begun to feel a long silence settling between us. what will happen then when everyone gets truly busy?
i can go days without talking to anyone and it's scary.
babe, you can point a gun at me any day of the week--
omg those eyes!
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anw, besides fangirling over this picture i recently found...
today, chionged work in the morn... then afternoon travelled to vivo to have lunch with archery team :) (hwanggg, russell, TT, jordan, xianzheng, yiling, soohan, suching, eli!)
ate at japanese gourmet town in vivo city with the first 6. DAMN NICE =) one of the best okonomiyaki i have eaten!!
hahaha the usual retarded laughing at russell and his fail-ness, making puns/innuendos/suans at michelle hwang and russ (haha!), retarded shit like hwang passing TT just one chopstick (because he asked for it.... so we broke the pair into separate pieces and handed him just one HAHAHA XD) and so on...
then went to party world to sing! had to leave early though D: sighhhh. and still had to pay quite a bit. so expensive.... party world is a rip off!!!! (and so is kbox!!) teo heng is the best but it's sooooo fully booked D:
i realised diff groups of friends have diff kinds of songs they like to/know how to sing! blyc peeps love rihanna/britney/linkin park/adam lambert/some of the nicer more common chinese songs/kpop (just for lulz)/some other famous songs.... classmates like paramore/the script/the wanted/a lot of english bands actually hahaha and the more popular/nice english songs! i realise archers don't really sing the same songs i am used to singing xD but that's cool, can go find out some more new songs :D
then left early so i can reach home to go out again to my uncle's house for reunion potluck! my mum's side of relatives!! so i had fun cousins to talk to :)
the temptation is strong... but i have to stop when it's not welcome.
sorry if i am too abrupt/impatient or even say things i don't really mean (as a joke, but still! sometimes i just heck care and say D: mebbe because im tired but no excuse)
sorry my friends! have to stop so easily succumbing to the temptation to visibly show my displeasure/anger... argh. be it on msn/sms/phone/in person.
whatever it is, i may be slightly annoyed, but i don't mean anything more than that.
ahhh and my legs hurt D: just from walking. i haven't even run since 2 weeks ago?? nooo. unfit max. wonder how much ive been burning tho :D hopefully it's a significant bit muahaha. lol but i don't think so! at any rate, i haven't weighed myself since AGES ago, shall do it sometime.
*** before i forget, last wednesday went blading at ecp with BLYC ppl :) hahaha yayyyy mir is a good teacher :) i am halfway to successful blading (except a horrible talent in braking xP) hehe. then went back to visit archery! omgggg im back to square 1 D: my shooting has gone back to terrible D: because i have barely enough strength to anchor at the correct position (what more click and fire/release properly) SIANNN. my first arrow each time is the best (centre of board) and then subsequently all the rest just fall randomly everywhere because no strength, so anyhow release. oh mannnn. so much for all that training before nationals D: sighhh. but i guess we didn't shoot for more than 7 months, so q. excusable.. but it's like a double-edged sword... if you want to be good at archery, you must do pushups and gym.... and get the gross result of bulky arms D: but if you don't train, you'll just suck. haha darn it.
then last friday went to randomly follow ACJM (woa sounds like a sch name lol! XD) to find their phones for NS lol! then lanned a little. later left merv & amos to lan somemore, jack left to meet his mum, while me and chris zaoed coz we have stuff on, but first ate road-side icecream :D at the..... um roadside HAHA. yayy nice stuff! oops skived off from my flexibleeee work on mon, wed, fri last week...
today, worked hard in the morn, then met JC (hahaha purposely arranged letters) for lunch at 112 katong :) then met A, M and M (again xD)! followed by a whole long aftnn of going here & there trying to find an available/non-rip-off karaoke place lolol kbox is a total ripoff amagad ($31.20?? are you kidding me)... gave up and watched The Descendants movie instead! hahaha then stoned around talking about random nonsense as usual xD and went home. nvm, though the day was quite uneventful (as was the movie xD) it's the company that counts :)
*faceplank* so cuteeee.
and i realise my posts are really crazy messes of words D: ahh need to fix that habit.
*** am quite worried that i can't finish my target by jan end D: shitttttt. there's like 29/64 households that still haven't done the survey yet.... and i have 5 days!! of which some are half taken up. gg~
hahahhaha my favourite EX-artist in japanese boyband Kat-tun, but now he works for Warner Music!!
this song above is much better than his earlier collab song ("Test Drive") with Jason Derulo. but in this mv, he keeps wearing glasses and beanie/hood omggggg *sadface*, every fangirl just wants him to show his face and hair D:
like this:
HAHA but this video is much better than the last, at least his glasses aren't opaque, so can see his eyes! And sexy men still look good in glasses xD Heh.
True for some people who look cute/hot/handsome even with glasses D: haha i want that ability.
*** I got a one way ticket to Mars
Girl, where we’re going we don’t need a car So baby let’s go
Make love until the Sun Burns Down-- ***
it has always been like this. i hate cny. fuck tradition. seriously.
okay, maybe i should qualify this statement:
i really fully support the good values behind CNY, how it's a time to visit your relatives, start the new year off with wishing those closest to you a good year ahead, filled with blessings, good fortune, health, wisdom etcetc. The very meanings behind the auspicious chinese words we say as greetings and the decorations we put up (those chinese word couplets we hang up) , 恭喜发财，万事如意，心想事成，步步高升，年年有余 etc.etc. those are wonderful sentiments, great feelings of well-wishing towards each other. A time to celebrate & spend time together and be happy. You entertain guests and wish them well, serving them food and drinks, of which, some are symbolic of wealth/sweetness in life etcetc. Well that's great. And i really think such things are worth practising :)
but if you go through those motions ONLY because it's so called "a tradition" or if you teach your kids to go through such motions because " then everyone will know you have been raised right/then you will be a proper chinese/then people won't say your parents never taught you" then it's utter bullshit.
you scream/shout/throw gigantic fits & tantrums (or failing which: when there's visitors and you must put on your hypocritical nice face, you say venomous things under your breath) at us, over the most mundane of things... for example, such as the choice between:
1. whether to serve the drinks already poured into the glasses OR 2. to bring out the cans of drinks tgt with the glasses filled with ice and let the guests choose what drink they want so they can pour it into the glass themselves
WTF? is it necessary to say stuff like "i don't know what's wrong with you *loosely translated*/you get more stupid as you grow up/you are *insert insult about my character here* over such mundane issues??
what is the bloody point, i ask you, of being so particular/demanding about hanging chinese couplets (春联）filled with good sayings (if i recall, you blew up over the issue of buying these as well because we did not buy them IMMEDIATELY when you wanted them), when you don't even freaking follow the good wishes and good thoughts that are supposed to come along with them? what is the point of inviting guests over and offering them all the right things/good food with a smile when you treat the people serving the food around you (maid, me, bro) like fucking shit?
If "tradition" means going through the actions/practices (such as auspicious words and decorations/red colour/guests) EMPTILY, then i guess all i have to say is fuck "tradition".
but if it means carrying out certain practices ONLY because you agree with and think that the values that go along with the tradition is worthy of practising, then by all means, this tradition should be preserved.
if i have kids/family next time, yes, im going to teach them the proper etiquette (ie. greeting your elders with good words etc/being friendly polite to visitors/blah) and the way things were done by their ancestors... but they will do it out of love for me, not out of fear of what i will do to them if they don't.
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anyway on the brighter side, my aim for this chinese new year is that i am going to get over my awkwardness with kids/little children. don't have younger siblings and am the youngest of my generation of cousins, so haven't ever been in much contact with little kids. must be why i never ever know how to deal with them:/ (but i guess CIP activities with pri sch kids has helped aha) and since my cousins (older ones) all have kids, i shall go practise :)
there's something really nice about dealing with little kids, they are so simply happy, so unpretentious...if they're selfish, they will show it (when they snatch the toys away from their younger siblings and turn their backs on them). if they're not happy they will show it. nothing complicated about them, and when they smile at you, you feel so warm inside, like you just made someone's moment so much happier just by existing and taking up space. much better, than listening to certain people talking to other adult relatives about things you hear every single day of your life, except in an infinitely nicer warmer tone.
I realise i am not really subscribing to the happy auspicious thoughts of CNY thing with this blogpost. Uncharitable thoughts are bad D: i know that, but it's just so hard to bottle them up. At the very least, i am doing the proper thing in my actions (if not for the thoughts): agreeing to everything, keeping silent throughout the verbal barbs, doing exactly what is asked of me and anticipating & doing it before it is asked (carrying chairs/serving drinks/throwing rubbish)...and even entertaining the little kids and striking conversation with other guests voluntarily.
omg. FREAKING OMGWTHBBQ DAMN GOOD DANCE. idk whether to use the adjectives hot and cool at the same time, but they both don't cover it's awesomeness!
watch!!! it's a hip hop street-ish like dance (american style?) but just that the people performing it are korean! not the usual synchro-but-weird-moves that they always employ in music videos LOL.
what a surprising admittance by amos xD HAHA but true that, i think there are female actresses i'd turn gay for too ;D (or maybe that's just me... :O heh)
and oops keeping epic statements to yourself is now a non-existent thing of the past with the invention of the function called Printscreen. XD
while we're at it:
stupid waichoong! trust him to say something like that in his trademark serious tone.
wow luckily i loveeeee green tea :) hehe drink it very very often during A lvl period. lol should go remember to drink more often again! BENEFITS OF GREEN TEA. Arguably, the most beneficial compound in green tea are the polyphenols which support the antioxidants that make green tea so beneficial to out health. The presence of antioxidants in green tea makes it invaluable for wellness and for improving poor health. EGCG is an antioxidant that protects all of your cells and your DNA from damage along with the polyphenols. Also, catechins are a part of the polyphenols. Catechins have been proven scientifically to eliminate free radicals. Free radicals cause damage to the body at the cellular level. Damage of the body’s cells leaves it more vulnerable to cancer and other harmful diseases. The addition of antioxidants, polyphenols, and catechins in a well-balanced diet contributes to the many benefits of green tea. Weight Loss If you choose to drink green tea instead of a cup of coffee every morning, you will notice a change in your weight in less than four weeks. The high concentration of polyphenols in green tea oxidizes fat in your body in addition to encouraging thermogenesis, which is the rate that a body burns calories. Green tea raises the energy levein your body which in turn raises your metabolism level. An increased amount of weight can be lost because of this significant rise in metabolism. If you switch your morning drink to green tea, you will be consuming fewer calories, and you will be burning more as your metabolism increases. The result? Increased and faster weight loss. Prevents Cancer Antioxidants in green tea destroy harmful and deadly free radicals in your body. Those free radicals can develop into far worse ailments, including cancer and they also can increase signs of aging. Green tea polyphenols are constantly fighting against those free radicals, and they can cease the formation of unstable oxygen molecules. This process, called oxidation, damages the healthy body cells, and it has been linked to stroke, cancer, and heart disease. Lowers Cholesterol High cholesterol is often linked to heart disease and increased risk of heart attacks. The benefits of green tea include lowering cholesterol, which eliminates the onset of heart attacks. There are two types of cholesterol, the good kind (HDL) and the bad kind (LDL). Green tea can assist your body to lower the LDL cholesterol. LDL cholesterol forms heavy deposits on artery walls. Green tea catechins decrease the amount of bad cholesterol (LDL). By doing so, it prevents heavy deposits on artery walls and stops heart attacks from occurring in the first place.
*** hmm have been feeling melancholy for many nights already. idk why. perhaps i should just take a real break, watch a movie online etc and relax.
what i'd really like is a random phonecall to talk about nonsense or a random convo about inconsequential things like "hey, watch this vid/ have you watched this before?" *(ctrlv) pastes links* "yea omg, look at this" and blah blah.
im always hungry these days. idk why :( eat normal portions of dinner, but get hungry at 11plus just 2 hrs later. maybe coz i've been eating 2 meals a day~ wake up, eat breakfast combined with lunch then walk outside in ulu hdb estates all day then come back for dinner. hmmm.
hahaha i changed the music player of my blog.... i can FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY play ANY song i want (lol you have no idea how many versions of the same video i had to run thru and get an error screen for in the previous player D:) i had been trying alllllll the possible many versions on youtube of the best songs i love but kept getting error D: so sad, but i solved my problem!!! :D (lol such a mundanely happy existence huh) but one of the greatest joys of my life is sharing stuff/hobbies/music/videos with friends.... a pity a lot of them dun have the time to watch or listen to anything i ask them to :/
but anyway, this first song (Lies) is ♥♥♥ seriously!!!!!! if you thought Tonight was nice and catchy (the 2nd song of which i previously had the live version only, this is the proper studio version that sounds EVEN BETTER), this song is heralded as one of Big Bang's best. haha yay! shall frequently add new music now :)
but shall leave this as the first for awhile! so nice so nice so nice.
omg. to combat the sian-ness of walking around by myself all day long, i keep getting tempted to buy random snacks/drinks and other crap to relief my boredom and to reward myself on so called hard work. AMAGAD. need to stop.
saturday: ate takopachi (1 ball from bro), sushi and cupwalker pudding milk tea. sunday: ate takopachi (my own set! muahaha) and took a bit of kfc from my bro monday: astons! and doughnut!! today: goreng pisang
holy moly.
all my less rice/less snacks/less food efforts from previous days all gone down the drain D:
need to run when im not feeling tired D:
and my house mirrors are tricksters!! they make you look slim when you look at them at home... but the mirrors outside the house tell you a different story. (!!!!!!!)
anw, i think tumblr is so popular because its pictures sell a lifestyle, a lifestyle that everyone wishes to have. one filled with pretty meals & meal settings, picturesque scenic views, the idea of rest & relaxation in an Eden of comfort/style/luxury (notice the damn nice house pictures or those pictures of a nice cool drink/a person relaxing in style). hahaha and cute children! what's not to like?
so many things to do these days D: and there's not enough time for anything!!! grrr, guess im making up for all the mega-aimless-slackdom of the last few weeks.
wahhh, seriously, i've wanted to blog since 4 days ago and im so tired now D: (plus i still need to input all the data online for work but am not doing it in favour of blogging!)
friday was work training! my supervisor is a really nice lady!!! she's realllyyyy mega nice hahaha (and though she and her colleague/desk neighbour seemed super auntie right, wahh they're damn efficienttt) in about 15 minutes when they were back from lunch and i wasn't (because i got sent to take some random passport photos), they totally printed a whole bunch of street directory maps for me (for a lot of my locations) PLUS highlighted the block numbers :O efficient max! and so helpful!!
(my job as data collector for ministry of manpower.... need to go do the down&dirty work of doing personal visits to all the households who did not pick up their phonecalls and survey them for the Monthly Labour Force survey.... need to plan the route really well, then walkkkkkk alot between blocks of flats. because each block only has 1 unit you need to go to, but theblocks are all kinda spaced out over the map... plus some places are just 1 place in the middle of no other nearby assignments -.-)
haha saturday and sunday worked my ass off D: (weekend leh sadface)
saturday: walked almost an entire street directory page for pasir ris! D: walked from this block to that block of flats each place only got one unit... so essentially im travelling a whole bunch in between just to get from 1 house assignment to another D: damn it....
plus the condos/private houses all damnnnn ulu!! much much worse than the far-apart hdb flats from diff parts of pasir ris that i had to access. plus the new condos all damn tight security please! (lol or maybe my house the security just damn useless! haha they sit there and watch you walk in without asking you if you're a resident.... and our lifts no need password one) the new condos have crazyyy tight security, you come in, the guard asks you which unit you visiting, and then they call the unit owner to get permission... after you enter, you still must talk to the unit owner from the intercom AT the bottom of the lobby, then if they decide to let you in, then the lift will actually work. wahhhhhhhh. damn nice. my place is just like *walk in* hahhaha. no wonder that's why our shoes can sometimes get randomly stolen from outside sia.
okay, but tho private houses damn ulu, omg let's not even mention the terrace/bungalows that make you walk damn far innnnnn. haha BUT good part is that it takes less private estate visits to get 1 day's pay... oh yeaahhhh.
okay sunday i walked a whole part of bedok. the sun was damnnnnnnn freaking hot D: felt all my energy draining off. felt tired soooo much faster than usual. did less houses too hahahha.
at least, you appreciate the little things in life :) like when i was walking, found this overhead bridge over the PIE at bedok reservoir road SUPERRR unique! haha just a extraordinarily narrow single-lane concrete bridge but with white fencing at the side! pretty! hahaha though actually usually i wouldnt have thought twice about it, when you're bored and tired and sian, you feel happy looking at minor things! lol and i found a plant that bears some weird furry red fruit that looks like rambutans but is heart-shaped! haha cheap thrills!
today was an awesome day :D:D celebrated jack's bday with amos, chris and merv! haha we (w/o amos) went to the titanic exhibition at the art science museum in the morning! TSK the museum building (at MBS) totally looks like a broken egg shell lah D: but the bakas (heh xD) keep insisting it's a lotus!!!!!! hahaha. took pretty pictures along the helix bridge and along the river!!! super nice exhibition:) had a whole lot of fun pretending to be 1st/2nd class passengers! (tsk annoyingggg ppl who keep reminding me that the passenger ticket i got was a second-class passenger's one while theirs was first class!!) xD at the end, in the guestbook, jack signed something from captain jack sparrow about them not calling for him & the black pearl! LOL hahaha q. funny. the other funny posts there were like "From Rose: Jack, im sorry i didnt feel the same way... I'm quite glad you died" HAHAHA wah rofl and "From Jack: Rose, Y U NO LET ME GET ON THE FLOATING PLANK?" hahaha
later we all met amos (seriously i think his hair looks damn cool! hahaha gangstaa~), walked around MBS awhile, OMG the floating LV shop is like :O hahaha a lot of atas art pieces and display pieces of watches/clothes that take up very little space but still use up the whole shelf -.- (heh waste of display space... like "hey my store is so successful, i can waste space just. LIKE. THIS!!!"). spent A LONG TIME deciding where to eat.... (since when were guys so indecisive? XD and about food?? gasp.) then we ate at Astons at suntec!! :) i love astons! played jack's bday present from amos/chris/merv, this game called Citadels! omggggg quite a cool game xD im really very amazed at all the many wonderful new board/card games that are selling these days, and all of them are really complicated and well-made and fun to play! (and some quite evil... hehe gloom is damn cute). oh and we all ate merv's donuts (made from home), they were really good XD
the only thing annoying was that OMGGGG the people who i house-visited and werent in then, all started calling me back today??? I was so free for the prev few days stoning around after working and NONE called.... but as the Law of Murphy requires, the moment i go out today and am happily hoping no one will call me, EVERYONE starts calling me back. amagad. i did 2 telephone surveys in the titanic museum, and another outside Astons on the steps, and another on my way home -.-
hehe but nvm, hopefully im earning good money, and i had a wonderful day spent with wonderful people :) ♥♥
ahhh i just realised i forgot to take a picture of my drawing D: i always take pictures of the finished product, just so that i can see if i'm improving through the years haha :)
and... once again, happy bday jack! :D (edit: just pretend this post was posted before 12 am HAHA)
Watch!!!! omgggg. haha the choreography was accused of being too racy for the korean stage, but they performed it a few times before they changed it (i think this is the unchanged one!)
The following comment says it all:
Yes! exactly!! hahaha i'm not alone! lol, hyuna is soooo damn sexy, it's a crime. hahaha like OMG her legs (combined with high heels and damn tight dress) D: and her face and her hair. lolol i think the agency market her image too much like that to change alr, so might as well milk it for all it's worth right! a lot of youtube comments like to accuse her of being slutty, but i think it's the agency who packaged her like that, not her fault. anyway she's got the body, omg so why shouldn't she show it off.
lol i actually quite like the choreo, it's so charged and smooth.
okay, but captured on photo, one of the moves looks quite wrong!
hahaha, but seriously O.O he does this move at least 2-3 times each performance, and i think in the first promotional month of their song, they performed this song at least 15-20 times (as evidenced by the many live versions on youtube)... then imagine how many times they had to practise before that! :O
omg lolol. lucky guy(hyunseung)? or lucky girl (hyuna)? i think fangirls might say the second option, while fanboys might say the first option. HAHA.
i think i just fried my brains with too much cell phone radiation XD i totally forgot that my home phone was changed from corded to cordless very recently!! (LOL same as the last time, when the new phone rang for the first time and i got the shock of my life coz i thought it was some creepy ring tone aka the scary-movie kind. hahaha)
talked to sarah buddy for an hour plus :D yay i miss phonecalls for fun! what better time to do it than now when we're all uber free right? (though very soon i think ill be DAMN sick of the sight of a phone... starting work as a data collector for ministry of manpower on friday!)
went to supreme court with jack today to listen to random cases!! amos was supposed to come along after his tennis/lunch, but he decided he was too late to come by in the end tsk (busy popular kid with so many other outings in one day xD).
damn interesting omgggg. hahaha i can't believe the two of us got so much kick out of listening to a case about construction of the marina coastal expressway (which initially sounds damn boring) we were totally lost for the first ten minutes but after that, can sort of make out some details of the case, and it's superr interesting to see how they construct and twist arguments and how the judge makes sense of all these and evaluates them. ahhaa she's a judge in the senior counsel (justice belinda ang-- or looks very much like her picture in the straits times).
omggg damn scary to be a lawyer, haha the defendant's lawyer was quite cui/cmi/fail XD whole day thinking what to say and having awkward silences in the court plus he brought in a lousy witness (IMO-- he couldnt explain anything well, too technical plus english cmi... so in the end the judge also couldnt get anything he said). And the lawyer also got scolded! for not stating something in his preliminary statement. hahaha scaryyyyy. being a judge seems damn good tho, you can show your frustration/irritation/zsnap the lawyers and they still have to refer to you with "your honour" HAHA. no wonder can behave like that right, high court judges are very high (for lack of a better word) up the ladder already.
the plaintiff's lawyer seemed very competent (for today's trial at least!) hahaha and his witness was superb! lol i shan't write down the whole case here, seeing as we got 3-4 full pages filled in a notebook xD good experience :)
later we went to yakun toast in Nex to drink coffee/tea with amos! hahaha, talked a whole bunch of crap... about ppl we know, about gayness (LOL :O heard disturbing things), about dreams and sigmund freud, about studying/work hahaha i don't really like the last topic (makes you feel stressed and uncertain) but i guess you still need to think about it and talk about it often to know what's going on in other's lives as well as think about it/gather info yourself...
on the way to nex, i signed my job contract at raffles place at my job agency (haha totally annoyed at how they treat us though) call me at 4pm asking me to come down by 6pm to sign the contract. im like "omg??" luckily i was at cityhall one stop away... what if i was somewhere really far away/not free? grrr but i guess job seekers are always at the mercy of the agencies. (aka: we have nothing better to do huh)
In short: productive day and had fun! :)
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LOL funny stuff i found on 9gag:
(freaking funny edits to those pictures you find on tumblr: aka those pictures with a random scenery or background together with emo sounding words! HAHA please ignore the f-words tho! the humour is funny even though they casually use far too much swear words)
sigh my red highlights are fading D: no longer brilliant red but more dark brownish-red! very soon, won't be obvious anymore D:
sighhhh. hahaha i find black too boring now that i've got to experience colour! (like hi-definition tv LOL) the hairdresser DID say that red fades the fastest tho she also said it looks the nicest with black hair. hmmm brown looks good though! (like sandra's nicee hair!) every other nice-kickass-obvious colour besides these colours would require you to bleach your hair which guarantees certain hair-death LOL. (but imagine all the colours you can get-- bubblegum pink, electric blue, super light caramel brown/blond) hahaha xD
nn lol nic khaw is so weird, randomly come and tell me my comment on ding's fb status very amusing -.- lol he still can't stop with the suans (that don't work anymore~). Lol, facts are, i think if mir, syakir, ding and me can call each other baby/bb/sexy etc like 2nd nature and use suggestive phrases and winks (;D) all over FB, that can only mean we are so deep in The Friendzone until 无药可救 alr. (haha there is such a chinese proverb right!)
yesterday after reaching home from chalet, was sooo tired (idk why LOL it's not like i went overnight cycling, wish i could have!!!!!)
crashed and slept at 8.30pm (SO EARLY) but ended up sleeping all the way till 7am. horrible sleep tho!! slept from 8.30pm to 1.30am, woke up then slept from 1.30am to 4.30am, then woke and slept till 7am.
seems like a lot, but damnnnnnn tired idk why. So many disturbing dreams!! one was about me attending some wedding then the guests at my table were trying to poison some other people, and then i had to go and report on them.... then i got into trouble, and had to run away from ppl trying to kill me. Dreamt of a random friend chasing me around trying to kill me with acupuncture needles-.- WTF?? hahaha
had another dream (which was rather normal, just a little depressing) hahaha, was rushing like mad to catch some mrt train with a friend, and then that friend met someone else, and ended up boarding the train with that person, *meanwhile* i was looking around in the crowd for that friend (who totally didnt care that i wasnt there) and missed the train. D: lolol.
today went for job interview (so anticlimax!!! shall tell if asked) and had to go 2 places somemore!! waste time. hahaha
ran 6.4km :D (was too tired to do more :/ ) and walked to make it up to 7.2km. let's continue this RAWR!!
LOLOL i love to do that!! HAHAHA. I think i learn from my bro who's a natural troll.
And i love it during mass school events, when everyoneeeee is clapping hard, then i purposely clap in syncopation (lol in between everyone else's claps basically) HAHAHA. then the ppl around me will get confused/ glare at me. teehee.
today i went shopping with mum =) haha more like i went to help mum find her cny dress xD just went into every dressing room with her giving comments and grabbing stuff i think would look good on her. lol as good as i am at it ;D tho, i think i fail as a personal shopper lol. i get sooooooooooo tired from shopping, think its a billion times more tiring than running 10km.
imma good kid heehee. and my dad met us later and we ate TCC :D yay i love the food there!
yay tmr is class chalet, hope its awesome :D and thankfully i get to stay over 1night, so happieeee :) tho 2nights would be great, but let's not push it XD
yesterday, played badminton with pri sch friends (longgggg time since ive last seen them, think i watched avatar with them, which is end of sec 4!) yayyyy i think im getting better :D
i can now smash!!! :D last time i could only do drop shots and high shots... hehe learnt how to smack the shuttlecock damn harddd to get the satisfying sound~ hehe.
today i watched America's Next Top Model (like 2-3 episodes hehe) omg damn niceeeee. i love how they take such pretty, stunning, sexy, high-fashion (haute couture) photos. ahhhhhhh. the eyes that convey this look of fierceness and sex appeal. okay cycle 16 is my favourite! brittani kline & molly o'connell (the final 2 contestants) are AMAZING.
the winner!!!! such a gorgeous girl, brittani:
walking down the catwalk with attitude~
she's known, among the 14 models for the best catwalk. and omggg she owns it with confidence, style, attitude and flair. ahhhh. hahahha her eyes are to die-for. prettyyy ♥.
the other 2 models in the top 3 are super darn stunningly pretty too.
First from the left: Hannah Jones (omgggg she's so pretty both in pics and real life) she got 3rd place~ Third from the left: Molly O'Connell (she's not very pretty in real life, but takes the most stunning haute couture pictures ever.... must be the uber fierce look in her eyes)
More of hannah:
zomg :O she reminds me of avril lavigne in this pic
Okay, so im done fangirling over ANTM!
After that, went to run :D yayyyy hit a new personal record of 8km of continuous jogging :) and walked another 1.6km to get 9.6km in total ^^ must be my uber awesome playlist of music today XD (coz usually i don't run with my ipod)! listening to Big Bang songs (and all that attitiude and SWAG- Something We Asians Got...lol!) works wonders~ the fast catchyyy ones with club-like beats just makes you run faster.
Playlist 1. Haru Haru (BB) 2. Heaven (BB) 3. Tell Me Goodbye (BB) 4. Lies (BB) 5. Sunset Glow (BB) 6. Tonight (BB) 7. Last Farewell (BB) 8. High High (G.Dragon & T.O.P) 9. Obsession (G.D) 10. Dr. Feel Good (Rania) 11. Lucifer (Shinee) 12. Ring Ding Dong (Shinee) 13. Go Away (2NE1) 14. Tik Tok (2PM)
yayyy and for the first time i actually can measure how fast i run, because i add up the song timings~ around 60 minutes for 8km tho! hohoho, kpop mania!
okay, some parts of it seem to me that i've read those words somewhere before (in various inspirational articles/speech transcripts) but the whole thing is really darn humorous also with a lot of Singapore references hehe.
if it's not inspirational to you, if anything i still think it's a wonderful witty read!
To add on to my original 4 resolutions (because i don't see any harm in posting them actually) and to put them into my brain once again because i realised i forgot most of what i typed within days of making them D:
1. Make proper goals and try to stick to them 2.Be independent. Don't turn to others so often to remedy your angst... 3. Even if others don't treat you right (or you don't think they do), be the best person(daughter/sister/friend) you can be, and let whatever happens, happen. 4.Cry less and smile more :)
(the continuation) 5.Exercise, don't eat excessively, reach 45kg!!
not crazy skinny, but the kind that has toned muscles hahaha... refer to Step Up 2 girl's body HAHA i am such a stalker xD i guess one can always dream big. i want to wear ANYTHING i want without feeling self-conscious. and i really mean ANYTHING.
6.Do more service/ Volunteer more out of the goodness of your heart.
I realise i've been slacking off in recent months since BLYC activities have stopped and there was A's and then after-As enjoyment, feel kinda guilty... i really need to find somewhere to volunteer my time since boonlay IS REALLY FAR... but it's scary to start all over again with unfamiliar faces :/)
7. Listen to others more. (a very big flaw of mine is not knowing the right questions to ask ppl to find out more about them, i feel like im intruding or being KP half the time, that's why i give up questioning after 2-3 qns. Stop that!)
8. Be a more kind, generous, nice, patient, understanding, good natured person. Don't hold grudges or badmouth people so much. Do things for people whether they ask you to or not, whether it is out of your way or not. Be less mean, say nice things to people and mean them from the bottom of your heart. (Basically: Behave like ______ ) Haha there's 1 or 2 people (or more like angels?) i know but who i wont mention or they paiseh, but shall be my sources of inspiration :) eh not bad, 1 from ea gender, an equal representation :D
9. Spend more time with the people i love and the people who i should treasure more.
10. Put in utmost effort (be it getting a job, volunteering, uni, studies, club activities) Yes studies, please don't waste any more of your academic life slacking away fruitlessly.
11. Keep in contact with everyone whose paths will all diverge from mine in little or large ways and those who have already diverged. (was thinking back to the old times, and regretting losing touch with some people already D: maybe it is never too late to try)
12. Love. Not necessarily referring to the r/s kind, but love for my friends and my family. I guess it ties in with number 8. If you love the person and want the best for them, you will go out of your way for them. Wrt to relationships, let it be the right person, for the right reasons, at the right timing. Or not at all.
13. Do something you truly like, or something you know you will develop an even greater passion for (though you might not deeplyyyy like it yet, but being not averse to it in the first place would help.... a great deal.)
I think it's really hard to do this though. Every self-help article and inspirational speech talks about this, but it's really really hard to follow one's heart (if you even know what it says in the first place) when there's a more logical or perhaps easier/more practical path to take :( the pressure to conform/to follow the path that's more trodden on.
14. End this resolution list. HEHE BYEBYE (and with that, ive done one resolution already. hee hee who says making simple goals are self-defeating? Au contraire, it makes you feel accomplished!)
today ran 6.4km again! but after a whole long break from running (since 21st dec omg and all the oilyyyyyyyyyyy hainan food) and christmas & New Year feasts... haha feel so unfit.... felt like dying after 2.4km.
Some of my favourite people :)
Great way to start off the new year! White wine and fireworks (on tv, anticlimaxxxx xD) after a potluck feast :D
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
those hands that embraced me
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
seem to be letting go
merely being by my side is not kindness Baby
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Tell me goodbye )
they have such wonderful voices (esp daesung!! though he's the least goodlooking of the group, he has the voice of an angel ^^) haha, can feel the sadness of the song. so versatile.... koreans singing japanese :)
hahaha got stuck on 9gag the whole afternoon -.-''
omgggg luckily i didn't discover this before As. HAHA. anw, it's not all trolling and memes, i learnt pretty cool stuff thru 9gag XD
discovered there's this place (the world's largest salt flat) in Bolivia, the Salar de Uyuni, that when wet with water, becomes Mother Earth's largest MIRROR in the world. omgoshhh damn cool, this is one place i hope i get to travel to in the future. :O
walking on clouds, towards infinity~ omgg.
the famous painting!
imagine doing all the cool shots you want!
so prettyyyy.
and of course, there's also the "SO TRUE OMG I DO THIS TOO" moments when you're on 9gag. such as:
HAHAHA.
my sms code. LOL too bad not many subscribe to it eh!
okay, this is not really a 2011 reflection solely, but a combined 2010 and 2011 reflection... mainly because i don't think i had a single moment of breathing space like this even in dec 2010 due to countdown madness and then transitioning straight away into the new year of 2011 with handing over/selecting the new exco/ with archery nationals & excessive training/ with studying like mad to catchup on everything i missed in j1.
woa that was one intense run-on sentence. LOL i should improve my punctuation XP
okay here goes... let's start by looking at some (certainly not all) of my 01/01/2010 Resolutions (when JC was going to start and like all secondary 4s, we were all q. apprehensive of the future)
1. "Enjoy jc life, subject combi and ccas of choice":
even with all the studying stress (where you feel like all the effort is churning out abysmal results) , crapload of admin saikang (BLYC) and crapload of pushups (archery), and even with all the mass complaining about class atmosphere... I think i can safely say that i really really had a very good, crazy-fun at times, service-filled, fruitful and educational two years :) obviously with ups (like never before) and downs (that can also reach quite low).... however, am still so very thankful :) for all the things the low-points have taught me and for all the wonderful experiences i have never went through before.
Learnt:
-how fulfilling service to others could feel
-how exhilarating it is to pour so much into a team effort together, that you feel this incredulous sense of joy upon completion (as opposed to feeling guilty that you did not do enough)
-how the classic prischool and sec school mindset of "sports isn't meant for ability-less people like me" is such a damaging way to think, just go out there and do your best!
-to stop thinking about what's going wrong, but what's going right. your mental state already determines the outcome of half the battle.
-from certain friends who have such forgiving natures and large hearts that i should aspire to do the same. to try and learn how to forgive others more easily, to not blindly follow a mass preconception and marginalise others, to forgive and forget, to be grateful for the things i have. (all this is still a work in progress of course, but hopefully realizing the need to do such things is already a step in the correct direction :) )
-how life is short and we should spend more time with the right people. namely, the people you enjoy, who love and appreciate you, and who encourage you to improve in healthy ways.
-how one should stop bashing up oneself/stop blaming oneself for one's flaws and love yourself more. only then will people love you more.
-how to be more independent (still a work in progress :D)
-that procrastination is a bad thing (AHAHAHA who am i kidding)
2. Exercise and get fit
3. Have no misunderstandings/quarrels with others that cannot be resolved
Have had a couple of unhappy things happening thru these two years, but nothing that was not easily resolved by discussing things honestly. I remember being very upset over the way the TYC@BL book publishing issue was being handled by wwc, but i also rmbr how maturely it was settled. (All hail the boss indeed!!) it's good that i did not choose to bottle up the frustration and sadness i was feeling, (and we cannot assume the other party can understand our silence all the time), and when everyone is on the same page, things can always reach a compromise. Many other incidents, but yada yada--
4. Make good, supportive friends and keep up with the old ones who matter most.
Hopefully, i didn't do too badly with this one:) the results remain to be seen. Though truthfully, some have been lost :( , but some wonderful ones have also been found :) and i guess this should be a goal throughout one's life, it can never be measured as "completed", neither can it be said to not have been "achieved".
okay so just some Dreams for 2012 (am not going to post some of the more personal ones HAHA :D aha! there! i have learnt self-censorship~~ lolol)
1. Make proper goals and try to stick to them 2. Don't turn to others so often to remedy your angst... be independent, girl! 3. Even if others don't treat you right (or you don't think they do), be the best person (daughter/sister/friend) you can be, and let whatever happens, happen. 4. Cry less and smile more :)
lol i have 20 actual resolutions~ so hard to rmb actually.
