You've gotta dance like there's nobody watching
Love like you'll never be hurt
Sing like there's nobody listening
And live like it's heaven on earth
--William W Purkey
just sometimes, i feel so redundant. but i guess you can't force anything into the hands of fate.
All men (and all women) are connected by an energy which many people call love, but which is, in fact, the raw material from which the universe was built. This energy cannot be manipulated, it leads us gently forwards, it contains all we have to learn in this life. If we try to make it go in the direction we want, we end up desperate, frustrated, disillusioned, because that energy is free and wild.
ahh perfect blend of jazz music with rap (omg, such genius at songwriting D:) the melodic lines go so perfectly with the hardcore rap in between. and i dun think ive ever heard jazz/lounge music sound so FREAKING GOOD. for those, who never have patience to listen to music thru the first minute.... lol you still must listen from 1.33-1.51! the voice of an angel omgg ♥
and 0.38to 0.55 is the rap. hahahaha i reallyyy only started appreciating how rap requires so much rhythm sense and ability to weave your words into the music melody line behind (with a bit of tone/intonations, but not as much as singing requires). TOP!!
haha i have no idea how guys can sing that high xD
hahahaha all of them so tall, dark and handsome now ;D heh.
and meanwhile im growing fat in the office (omg).
but reallyyyy, bald hair actually looks quite good on all of them! contrary to what they all think, tsk.(and i shall not boost anyone's ego anymore today, because pple like christeow can actually reply my "im growing fat" whine with a "yeah i think so leh" like omg bitch! xD)
today had a wonderful catch-up/talk session with amos, chris, jack, merv, merv's sis marie, yifan. :) hahahahaha our super customary habit of standing in some random place/wherever we happen to meet and talk and talk and talk and talk and talk, without even moving to where we want to eat/go. HAHAHA. and every now and then, one of us will say "eh we really should go somewhere/pick someplace" but the convo just continues digressing and we all remain standing there HAHA.
after a longggggg while later, we finally went manhattan fish market to eat :) early dinner at 5plus! i keep wanting to treat them something (like dessert etc.) but i never get a chance to treat all, coz someone's missing or leaving! and i dun really know what to treat.... (yall just go think of ideas for next time lah... just not absurd ones xD)
nice food :) and great talk... tho i guess in a larger group, you can't really talk to much of the table anymore :/
after we took a picture, amos left early D: then after that we (omg you'd never guess what we did!)...................................................................................................................................................... ................................................................................................................................................................ ................................................................................................................................................................
we ended up talking and standing around outside in YET another place hahaha *gasp* so surprising. xD
But fun lah, listening to and catching up about their NS stuff! It really sounds like damn hiong/stressful at times and like a rigorous ttm boot camp, plus sometimes with unreasonable punishments and extreme demands....
But, it really sounds like an Experience (capital E). Like maybe some wouldn't call it exactly "good" per say, but really sounds like it's a one of a kind whole new world of exposure :) [and i can tell from the way they talk about NS too, one day im sure it'll be something good or even semi-good to look back on, sure not now, but later] I think there'll be quite a few good points and "up-sides" for them to look back on next time as well :) despite the downs and stress (that sound quite scary actually)... jiayou anyway guys!! :) just a few more weeks!
also, we had some fun talking about our usual rubbish and crap (the usual) and playing with jack's cap! ahaha a cap on a head is just a very tempting sight to ppl who like to grab things (ie. everyone else 8D). took 1 or 2 more pictures (of ez link cards hehe) and played around! brandon came later and bought his dinner while jack & chris left! D:
then we sat outside marina square, at the steps in the dark. and talked somemore. then on the way back, went to eat ice cream at Il Gelato Di Bruno (at citylink mall) superrrrrrrrr nice icecream! and 1 for 1 (very very worth it coz it's a GIANT serving squished into a small cup) lol we got the order all wrong, coz we shuld have totally bought the ice cream before sitting and standing around all the time lol.
and marie keeps suanning me and my very good description skills. muahaha i really should go into advertising! ill help you sell your products real well. ice cream shop: "buy our ice cream....it's sweet! and cold!" (amagad how descriptive) HAHA :D for New Look, "our clothes are NEW and look good~" heh went too high from the sugar rush alr.
the guys are out from NS and tonight suddenly the whole fb and msn is alive.
ahahaha.
anyway, omg hahaha had the most epic rubbishy wonderful msn convo with brenda tonight. hahaha all the way till 2.30am. omgggg. haven't had pure frank girl talk in so longgggg. HAHA still got so much to say but it's too late! talked about everything, from stalking to youtube videos, to stalkers, to creepy ppl you block, to very interesting past stories :F lol to gossip too.
the concept pictures are damnn cool omg. new image overall for ea of them! :) and i always love the gangster/bad-ass cool rocker look when they do it to both female and male stars XD
T.O.P!!!!
Leader~
i really don't think any of them classes as "pretty boys" and that's the best part about BB! they write their own songs and rap lyrics, actually sing, and they create their own fashion trends! plus they started off in the hip hop arena, i.e. streetdancing moves when they debuted. not factory-made precise cookie cutter moves.
rawrrrr. can't wait!
and i really love the spiked arm things that T.O.P is wearing! (more on that later xD)
anw, new blog song! TURN IT UP by T.O.P (solo) hehe.too bad the new player doesnt show videos D: it's really darn cool/ultimate pimpish LOL
haha yay today i was so efficient at work, that i finished my task (typed out a bunch of court transcripts, plus found all the documents they referred to during the case--- found in the many many many stacks of files, photocopied and annexed to the document!) too early, and then slacked from 4pm to 6pm xD hehehe. i read the newspapers, went down to buy coffee and tea for my colleagues... then slacked on fb. HAHA
anw, yayyy spent vday night with my wonderful guides batchmates :):) soooooo long time haven't caught up with them already (like since sec4 for some of them) ♥ had dinner at Bali Thai restaurant in NEX with brenda, sarah buddy, weiqing, joni! haha jiemin came later on after her workshift ended at 9 D: haha nex was really flooded with people and couples with huge balloons and flower bouquets LOL.
im so glad we can talk about nonsense and retarded things! we really talk about very mundane stuff too XD but it's very funny that we can do that anytime anywhere. haha i haven't had a large girls' outing in a longggg time, forgot abit about what it feels like to talk about stuff like *cough* wonderful apps on the phone that help you count ummmm a certain number of days xD LOL and stuff like this and that. found out what a lot of them are doing now also, life is getting so diverse and interesting! i really wonder what will happen few years down the road where everyone will really be working and forging their own paths in permanence (and not like temp jobs where we can all be talking about quitting here and there)
i can't remember when was the last time i had something awesome with my batchies (maybe in end sec 4?) that was when i last rmb typing a :') emotional happy sentimental guides blogpost!
hahaha love them so much... i think without them, as well as our guiding days and experiences, and this culture of warmth and acceptance, i never would have become so much freer with showing affection and love as i am now. the people you hang out with really influence you greatly! behaviour is almost a learned thing. i would never have been able to hug randomly, walk arm in arm, lean head on shoulder (WITH GIRLS! the other gender is as of yet to be experimented on LOL 8D) that kinda thing if i never went thru the guiding life. ♥ not just mere actions tho, i just think i learnt to treasure ppl more (really hopefully!!).
on another note, vday is so funny to observe on facebook xD it's a very diff newsfeed that i observe from when we were still in school! for one thing, all the couples (at least those whose halves arent in bmt or those past that age) are posting pictures of their gifts/fun dates and sweet nothings lol.
for another thing, everyone ELSE who is otherwise unattached, is posting very hilarious fb statuses.... for single guys it usually goes something like "spending forever-alone day with my one true love, my bunk!" and "best vday ever: had to share a shower stall with another guy because there wasn't enough space for all of us to bathe individually"
and for single girls it'd be "spent the best forever-alone day with (insert a galfriend's name)!!" hahaha everyone really makes plans the same way xD
anyway heh, on sunday i brought buddy to the next flea market (as promised!). omggg the deals are just too good already! cannot resist. i bought 3 tops, 1 dress, 1 skirt and 1 shorts for $29!!!!! like OMG. yay now there's more wardrobe variety :)
but anyway to my future valentine (whether one is existent or not in my lifetime),
i hope that i will be able to show you that i love you so, on every single one of the other 364 days of the year, not just vday :)
work has been really interesting and enlightening :) i shall not type much here seeing as the few dears i keep in contact with now, already know everything! :) these days, dun really feel like blogging everything down, but what if i forget D: hmmm.
anyway, new blog song!!!!
MY WISH by RASCAL FLATTS
nice song here :) had it in my ipod for quite awhile, but was listening to it on the train, and it's really really good. one of the nicer HAPPY SONGS (!) that i likeeeee (not that im gloomy/depressive but somehow very happy bright songs just have to try harder to be REALLY good for me to like them a lot... i.e. very catchy/feelgood/cool beats/very meaningful lyrics)
the lyrics are so sweet :') it's not the wishy-washy mushy(which im okay with) BUT extreme (haha not okay) love lyrics (LOLOL bruno mars: "if you're leaving me, put some morphine at my door"??? XD), it's the kind of love that can apply for not only bgr, but friends and everyone important to you!
♥ awwwwwww. if someone sang this to me, though id be thinking they might have friendzoned me utterly & completely, id still be melting~!
LYRICS:
I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow And each road leads you where you want to go And if you're faced with the choice and you have to choose I hope you choose the one that means the most to you
And if one door opens to another door closed I hope you keep on walkin' til you find the window If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile But more than anything, more than anything...
My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you're out there gettin' where you're gettin' to I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish
I hope you never look back but you never forget All the ones who love you and the place you left I hope you always forgive and you never regret And you help somebody every chance you get
Oh, you'd find God's grace in every mistake And always give more than you take But more than anything, yeah more than anything
[...]
This is my wish (My wish for you) I hope you know somebody loves you (My wish for you) May all your dreams stay big (My wish for you)
Enjoy life and don't live a complicated life. Life is too short.
Work as if it was your first day.
Forgive as soon as possible.
Love without boundaries...
Laugh without control
and never stop smiling.
yesterday was really productive, i sat down and emailed over 40 law firms to ask if they have slots for an internship, lol with my CV and coverletter. hahaha omg stalking skills have finally come in handy ^^ i stalked down a lot of firms from some law gazette articles and then stalked ea one to find a contact email, even those small sorta less-known firms without a website listing their contact details... teehee!
haha yayyy it paid off :) today i replied a few smses and this firm said i could start internship TMR. LOLOL O.o im like "do i need to come down for an interview?" the next moment, the director replied thru sms "nah, you can start tomorrow, come at 9pm and find so-and-so" haha yay :) i feel very productive!
then i went out to buy some stuff! yay shall go practise with my new eyeliner :) one of my biggest life goals now is to learn how to use eyeliner. haha then i went to ask my optician why my eyes like CMI after just 3 hours of wearing contact lenses. she say my eyes have tendency to be dry D: and not so good for contacts (ARE YOU KIDDING ME) hmmmm but apparently the bi-weekly ones are better for the eyes than dailies... so maybe ill change to those. but quite exxx leh 400bucks for a year's supply D: see whether i can make enough money to cover those in uni, or dont bother alr. haha glasses ftw!
have recently been hooked on buying cheap clothes. hehe mir introduced me to the wonderful Flea Market, where nice clothes (if you can find them) can be bought at damn cheap prices!!! omgg dun feel like shopping in a normal shopping centre after you shop at a FM. haha last last sunday i bought a dress for $3 (LIKE OMG) and another dress at $10. there were nice tanktops selling at $2??? hahaha shuld have bought D: (last time i used to buy them at $15 at CottonOn, like zomg such a ripoff for so little material) but if you buy at $2, it's like even if you don't really wear, it's such a good deal still.
okay, tmr first day of work =) shall sleep early!
went to cut hair today, but didn't cut much! i think ill be keeping long hair already :) unless somehow one day i decide that i can pull off this look: (very doubtful)
OMGGG. Please please please please please please please please have a concert in singapore, ill spend any amount to get a good ticket ♥♥♥♥♥ 16 countries 25 cities (one of them MUST be singapore pleaseeee)
wow, i think this world tour will be a big success, the director for their concerts is the same woman who directed lady gaga's world tour concerts, and she's worked with MJ, Beyonce and Katy Perry. And the sound director worked with Eminem and Linkin Park before. (Y) big bang has their reputation among all the korean groups, for having the most charisma in their live performances, they can make the whole stadium jump/sing/shout/dance just by being there. and they can actually sing... so at least i know the concert won't be a let-down.
soooooo niceee. hahaha and the chemistry :O and the choreography is amazing. (the girl is so flexible holycrap)
and this vid below is on a whole new league on its own!! some form of russian dance... where it's more acrobatics than dance, but the male & female use each other as like the acrobatic equipment. OMG the guy is either freaking strong (lifts the woman seriously like she weighs nothing) or the woman is so flexible she flows around the guy like water :O hhahaha or a combination of both. it's amazing:
all that running, but still the same weight! -.- #futile
ahaha tsk. was 50.2kg during the weighing session the sch subjected us to in j2. today i weighed myself after running, and was 49.6kg. butbut if you add back the water loss of about 300g... I AM THE SAME. (but well at least i hit 4x!!! hahaha sec3 weight :) )
homg. lolol. (the delusional side of me thinketh: muscles must really weigh a lot huh 8D)
MUST be all the good food i've been eating left right centre xD
(speaking of which) Yayy me and sarah had our long awaited buddy outing :) on saturday (4th feb)
Spicy chicken spaghetti!
Mushroom&Prawn Pasta Gratin
TIRAMISU^^
Pumpkin cheese cake
Buddies♥
hehe TCC food rocks :) and lolol our food photography contest ^^ buddy won the chicken spaghetti picture over my gratin picture, but heehee my tiramisu picture won her cake picture 8D (maybe coz i unfairly rigged the competition HAHA)
and went out with pri sch friend janeee on friday (3rd) :) yay glad that we still keep contact through the years!
cheesefries & pizza @ 15minutes (cafe)
Haha (am currently sorting out hp photos, that's why the pic spam) mmmm pictures bring back loads of memories:) nothing captures the great times like a picture :)
ECP outing in december :) the group picture isnt with me though, sadly D: but jack's super nice treat of dessert for all 4 of us omggg #chocolateyheaven#
titanic corridor
this was a wonderful day! Bday celebration+titanicexhibition:) again, the group pic is not here, because it's already on facebook :) hehe but ^ really looks like the titanic set on the movie huh!!!
wonder how the guys are faring in NS xD ah well, will find out soon enough :)
based on the true story of 71 students who fight hundreds of North Korean soldiers in front of a middle school on June 25, 1950 during the Korean War. The area was critical point for safeguarding the area apparently... but the South Korean army moved its troops elsewhere, thinking the threat would be at another area... so it was up to the student soldiers to hold them off. it's damn sad.... and so heroic... A letter was found from one of the deceased soldiers which inspired the movie.D:
"71 boy soldiers of the South Korean army singlehandedly held back the elite North Korean 766 Commando Brigade for a full 11 hours." holy crap, this is like the movie 300 :O:O
and not just cause TOP starred in it either :P (tho he did win an award for his acting.. hwaiting!!) , it genuinely looks like a real good show. sad too :/
please help ____ and ____ overcome their troubles, sadness, anger, hurt, possible misunderstandings (or not), and let them come through this as stronger and braver people than before, on good terms. i am sad to see them sad, and there is nothing i can do.
please help _____, let her be well and remain the strong girl she is, in this tough time she is facing. please help her deal with her loss, and know that in tough times, she will have the love and thoughts of those who treasure her dearly, rallying behind her.
i realise i know next to nothing about so many of my friends, or at least the things closer to their heart. please help me strive to become a better friend. one whom others can go to for help, whom others know they can turn to when they are sad/down/frustrated and angry. not one whom is sought out only when the tides are peaceful and things are fine & tranquil. Am i perceived as perhaps too transient a friend? Touch and go? Fleeting? Sorry :(
there's just something to be said about the way you make me so freaking angry in the shortest time frame, and with the least amount of words possible.
the condescending and never satisfied look. the belittling tone, ugh.
and when you demand me to do this and that, even though i was already set & happily decided to do those things, i suddenly feel like not doing them anymore.
making my life tougher than it should be.
must be your favourite hobby.
[maybe in my past life, i made someone's life miserable too? just maybe?]
oh lol. today i learnt from the predictably irrational book of jack's, that when you're angry/any other strong emotion, you do things you wouldn't normally do in your "cold" & less emotional state. hmmm but instead of saving angry posts as drafts to be reconsidered and then dumped later, im going to post this, because it's therapeutic that way.
in the last few days, the facebook homepage has been filled with saccharine sweet status updates and wall postings.
ahahaha. the wonders of the internet! it crosses time, space and bmt LOL.
i think they're all damn cute. and sweet. :) and i go awwww when i read the stuff, lol, but maybe i am perhaps too much of a drama fangirl, one who likes to see other people projecting their happiness out into the (cyber)world for all to see... even though some of it might seem like they've learnt it from a romance novel/drama themselves. HAHA but nah, probably not. love might make people do diabetes-inducing things unconsciously huh xD
tho thinking it's damn cute, might just be the response they are hoping to engender. but i also know some people who are in varying degrees of thinking "omg keep it to youselves, will ya?"
