i performed horrendously today =( argh. felt so depressed halfway... and at the start when it was raining, the wind was erratic, we had to shoot and i started Missing TTM omggg. plus pulling the arrows from the board was pure torture, we couldnt even get out the arrows with 3 gals pulling one arrow at a time with 2 arrowpullers. waste so much energy pulling arrows. shooting sucked like hell and stressed ttm! =(
later started cheering myself and ellie up by pretending it's just any other training just in a new field with new people.... started caring less and trying to just shoot properly. it didnt really work I STILL DK WHY. OMG. I did the same form i did every training that WORKED fine until today =( argh. maybe it's my fingertap. the entire day felt super weird in my right hand. but anw. apathy worked to sooth the nerves and stress abit.
damn saddening tho... :/ but it was still a good learning exp i guess.... never had an archery comp before anw! we won 3rd place (bronze medal yes) for Under18 Female Team Knockout. (sadly there were only three teams) I really feel damnnnnn undeserving =( but nvm. haiz. ahhhhh. damn it lah. undeserving ttm. i am really quite worthless. shit. but since ellie says i was an encouraging presence while shooting the same board, i shall just think of myself as helping in being that presence. sigh.
anw, thank youuuuuuuuuu so much sandhya for sending me a goodluck jiayou sms!!! LOVE YA DEAR =) you're awesome. we really need to catch up sometime soonnnnnnn =) hahaha cant believe u were bloghopping this exact morn, saw that i had comp and thought to send me an sms to wish me gd luck=) i was so happy and touched. and even tho i sucked so bad, during that fifteen min break when i saw your sms i felt heartened!! even tho my shooting continued to be like shit. hahaha but thats my problem xD anw, i guess its more of an rg tradition/girls' tradition... the gdluck smses or the warm sweet smses and the birthday smses too! i really miss them so.....
BECKY TOO! thank you so muchhhh my dear friend, you specially smsed me twice to ask me to gambare as well! awwww =) love ya! even though we have hardly caught up with ea other this year.... =( but i guess good friends will always just strike that special chord in your heart =)
yiling and me rushed to school later after comp and went to watch choir concert at night with classmates! hope they had a nice busy time having fun in the aftnn cycling at ecp.
so sleepyyyyyy. finally ate my dinner at 12am when i reached home. zomg unhealthy ttm. haha e two of us were super hungry and cold during e concert xP
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