forgot what happened today. just that i didn't go for archery and boonlay youth club coz of high fever and cough. same symptoms that keep cropping up this year. sianz.
always left wondering...
why.
the universal question.
why?
why i can't forget things and live life carefree
why i overthink, overanalyse, over-emote
why i do this to myself everyday
why i am always the first to come calling and also the first to get daoed
why others are in my thoughts more often than i am in theirs
why circles are formed outside of my reach
why doors close but leave me knocking
why hollows can't be filled
why hope is actually a terrible thing
why it is sad when silences go unnoticed
why certain fond instances between friends are forgotten but remembered by some
why the value of my friendship seems to be depreciating with every passing second
why loneliness is a word that shouldn't exist in the dictionary but does
why sleep seems so enticing
just cause there's no way you can be alone when you are dreaming.
and yes, before you think it yourself, yes i think i am a slightly screwed-up specimen who doesn't deserve anything and anyone.
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