i hate studying with tests in mind. hate it. hate it. hate it. hate it.
hate. it.
hate. it.
it. hate.
or maybe i just hate myself and how i cant sit down and concentrate for more than 5 fricking minutes anymore, how i read notes at 5 pages per hour. shit. i dunno how to go faster and its really burning me out.
i think i study stupidly. (even the word study and stupid look kinda alike). who the hell tries to memorise every word in the notes word by word. phrase by phrase. shitty line by shitty line. OMG. but i cant make myself NOT do it.... -.- spent the whole day today reading chem bonding I notes and am only halfway thru chem bonding II. and thats seriously the only thing i did today. didnt even slack/watch anime/relax by watching vids.... only slept for 45 minutes at 6pm! and the worse part is i keep digressing to rereading trashy novels lying around my cupboard!
(this is so like chinese olvl studying whereby i digressed till i read like 6 books from the Mediator series, 2 Eragon series books and a whole bunch of crap...)
i reread parts from The Host, Chasing Hary Winston, In Her Shoes and who knows what today... rawr. what the heck.
im so super tired, and the worst part is that ill probably forget all the crap i crammed into my head today by the day after tmrw. coz thats just how long my memory lasts-- for the short term goal of studying last min for the exam the next day.
hate my slow unproductive self D:
fmllllllllllllllllllllllllll--
the only thing i did this holidays: atomic structure and the lil bit of chem bonding i was ranting abt earlier.
i feel like slacking but i really cant, but whats the point of trying to study anyway? doesnt even feel rewarding.
want to know other pple's progress.... but will probably end up getting more stressed out than ever, coz ALL everyone talks abt on facebook nowadays is their studying (which makes me really freaked out coz how can everybody talk abt studying everymin of their lives so easily???) lol my bro says everyone in school is just trying to psyche each other out mentally.... but i mean, who on earth wld want to boast abt studying?
dangit wish i had the concentration span of my primary school hardworking self.... sit down for 5 hours then only need to break half hr at most...... sigh.
-.-
no happy post today i guess.
i wish my tests were asexual so they'd do themselves!
(ahahaha. reused.)
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